What is it?
What else can I do?
I live "the dream" as I've heard many say--I wake up and go where I want when I want. Now I live on an island working at a dive shop. What more to live, than an easy going one?
Why is it that I'm always searching for something that I seem I'll never find? I have no idea what it looks like, what it feels like, or anything of the sort. I don't even know that it exists. Yet I'll never give up. I'm always on the go--searching and keeping watch for signs and stairs to the next path and journey. But what else can I do?
I can't just keep searching for something that could not even be there.
I'm tired, and overwhelmed, there is no one to keep up my spirits for me to strive to keep going like I have for years--not that its their duty, but I need the support from time to time.
I'm lost in a dark cave searching for the light that I've never seen. When will the rocks shave to the side for the light to drift in? Will it be on my dying day?
Let us hope not.
I want to be an example that--in life you don't need all the necessities in it as everyone has told you-you just need you and your spirit with great dreams--how can I prove that when I'm struggling myself?
---Yes struggles only make you stronger and lead you to become better--I realize this--but 23 years straight of this is really getting tough.
Let it be just the beginning of a girl on a great journey, that will one day rest and be happy with EVERYTHING in her life. Mark her words-as you should write yours.
